insomnia... such a disturbing word, ominous and threatening. sounds like the name of a disease, definitely a sickness or simply a state of being.
when you don't sleep the world is a blur, actions are far away and uninteresting, like living in a dream, there might be some irony in the fact that you are dreaming even while you are not sleeping, call it daydreaming, only it's different than daydreaming, more detached.
i have tried multiplying 20 x 10, i'm very good with numbers... it took me about 6, 7 seconds to figure out that the answer is 200. i have never had trouble sleeping.
when people died, i slept
when i had problems, i slept
when i had things to worry about, i slept
when i had people to worry about, i slept
and even when i was undecided... i still slept.
but things change i guess, the world does not stand still, stagnation is just another word for death.
maybe death is not so bad, it contrasts life like a black dot on an endless white background. but even as life carries the seeds of death, could death somehow carry the will of life? could it somehow possess all the havoc that is essential , or is a result for all that matters, of huh...life?
it could and more i suppose... it could and more, but who could say for sure?
they say the dead tell no tales, but what if they came back, will they tell?
well, all i know is that death tells you to slay your fictional deities, and life holds on to them as a cub holds to its mother. their struggle is as unending and as deep as the chasm that extends between good and evil.
8 years ago
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I am not too sure I agree with your last paragraph. But it's a matter of perspective, no?
I like when you say death carries the will of life. I think it's very true. I think death itself could a celebration of life.
to hell with perspective, let's save it for those who can't come to a conclusion.
i've read what i wrote, you might have a point there, maybe their "struggle" is life itself.
as a self proclaimed insomniac, i like how you descibed insomnia!
it's funny though, once you get used to insomnia, you start getting too used to it, to the extent that long durations of sleep seem to be rather disturbing and cause the same blur!!
or it could be just me!
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